Cookies, pizza, donuts & him

Hello from ‘I am completely spiraling’ and need to get my shit together quickly.

Today it hit me that I am so far off my path. Why today? I’ve known that I am off plan. That part is easy. What hit me is that I am back to eating without regard to the impact on my weight and health.

Traveling for work today, I started my road trip by going through a Starbucks drive-thru to get me pumped for a long day of training. You know, a venti coffee and scones help with getting one’s game face on to rollout a new program to a group that are less than thrilled with the decision they had no part in making. Note, I said SCONES.

Arriving at the office, I found bowl after bowl of chocolates. I didn’t want anyone to think I was picking favorites so I had some from every bowl. Skipped a nutritious lunch completely. But jumping on the expressway to drive home, I popped in for a celebratory iced coffee in honor of a successful day of training. It didn’t help that I had a gift card burning a hole in my pocket … yep, add a couple of cookies for good measure. All of this doesn’t sound bad until you combined it with the many office birthdays with tables full of sweets. It spells total disaster.

And then there is men … well, man. Bad decision man. The kind that makes your toes curl but your heart hurt, yeah that one, I’ve got that issue too. The strong, on the ‘right’ path, Alexandria would show him the hand and walk the other direction. Well, I hope she would. I think I would.

What exactly does all it all mean? It means I need to get my shit together. I am terrified of sliding and regaining the weigh back I’ve lost.

I know how to lose weight. I know what needs to be done.

High protein small meals every three to four hours

Water … lots of water

Planning … Following through with the planning

Working out daily

 

I know how to do this!!

 

I know my WHY …

I want to LIVE instead of just exist

I want to ride horses again

I want to fit comfortably in ONE seat on an airplane

I want to play golf with my dad

I want to chase my niece around the park

I do NOT want to die!

I have to take control back.

I am taking control back.

 

I deserve so much more.

 

Three Hundred Forty

 

 

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